Reality check

I've been thinking a lot lately about my wedding. I look at other people's weddings and think how great they looked, or what they did that was so fantastic, what I could have or should have or wish that I had done or had for my wedding.

But as I thought about it today, I came to a realization. My wedding was better than any of theirs, even if they had a horse drawn carriage to ride in, hundreds of friends at their reception, or a chocolate fountain, or so many other things. When I look back on my wedding, it may no have been perfect. But I have something that none of them have. I get to be married to the person who makes me happier than I could have ever dreamed I'd be, the man who teaches me so much about myself and loves me so much in spite of my numerous shortcomings.

So when I look at a picture of someone's wedding and think, "Wow, her dress fits her so much better than mine did" or, "Her hair looks so pretty, I wish I'd done my hair that way (or just differently)" or, "She's so lucky, she had so many of her girlfriends who were able to be her bridesmaids," I realize that in the end, none of it matters. I had my best friends right there with me, few though they may have been. But I got to marry my best friend, and I get to spend forever with him. And no one can take that away from me.

October

Yay for October! The month of (hopefully) cooling temperatures (we've been in the 80's during the day here in Utah for most of the week), meaning that I can start wearing fall clothes and not sweat to death when I ride my bike to school each morning.

So, I haven't blogged for awhile. It's not because I haven't wanted to, either. I just...haven't had anything to blog about. I'm in school, working, and...well, that's just about all I do. Any of my free time is either spent doing homework or avoiding homework and spending time with my wonderful husband instead. Overall, my life is fairly uneventful. I guess that's what getting married does to you.

I realized last night that as of today, I have been married for two whole months. We've made it so far, I know. When I told Kagan that last night, he couldn't hardly believe it. It's funny how 2 months when you're engaged feels like an eternity, and 2 months when you're married just flies by.

I really don't have much to write about. I'll end with a plug for my other blog. Visit it here! I don't know when the last time you looked at it was, but there's some pretty funny stuff on there. Also some very happy things, as the name of the blog implies. Take a look!

Secret #21

I'm fairly certain that the drinking fountains on campus are conspiring against me. More to come on that...if I feel like it.

Double meaning

This morning as I was opening my office, which happens to be on the 7th floor of a rather tall building on campus, I looked out over the Utah valley. It was fairly early, so the sun was still rising over the valley. I realized that in most places, since the sun rises in the east, the sunlight spreads from east to west, correct? Well, because of the mountain range directly west of where we are, the sunlight actually ends up spreading from west to east.

What a backward place Utah valley is.

Secret #20

Now that I'm married, I attend a student married ward. Most people in the ward don't have kids, but a few do. Most of those kids are small babies, so the only distractions they provide are their cries (usually quelled quickly with a bottle) and their cuteness. However, there are a few couples with kids, probably 2 or 3 years of age.

Fact: I have a really hard time not judging people who let their children run wild during sacrament meeting.

Pictures!

Yep, I'm posting to show you more pictures! But we're pretty good-looking, so you can't complain, can you?

Here's the link to our pictures.

Our photographer, once again, is amazing. Those sunset shots are real. I can attest that the sunset actually looked that way. She didn't increase the saturation or anything.

We did this shoot on the 4th (well, actually the 3rd, but the 4th was on a Sunday, meaning most everyone in Utah celebrated it on the 3rd) of July, which is how we got the big fireworks in the background. It was a super fun shoot, and it was so worth it to give up my 4th for that!

P.S. I'm getting married in 11 days. I cannot wait!

Secret #19

Engagement makes me not have time to do anything. Especially post on my blog.

On that note, our engagement pictures are online. Take a look. Our photographer is fantastic.

I have this problem...I don't like talking to strangers (stranger danger, anyone?).

Example: whenever I get a phone call from a number I don't know, I don't answer it. I just don't like talking to strangers.

Another example: when I am at home (which is rare), there's really only one person who visits me (I'll give you 3 guesses who, and the first 2 don't count). So, if I'm the only one home and someone comes to the door, I never answer it. My bedroom window looks out over the front door, so I usually just peek out that to see if I know who it is (which is hard to decipher, since I can usually only see the top of their head or their elbows and the backs of their legs). I hardly ever do, so I just ignore it, telling myself that if anyone asks, I was in the shower or my music was up loud. I just don't like talking to strangers.

Maybe this has happened because I'm sick of people coming to my door or calling me, wanting me to buy a newspaper subscription or a $50 bottle of cleaner or a starving student card that I absolutely do not need or want. Maybe strangers should go door to door wanting to tell you that you look nice that day, or wanting to give you money. Then I'd be much more willing to answer the door. Until that day, however...I'll remain alone in my dark room, creeping out the window at the top of people's heads.

Secret #18

It snowed today. Some guy was whistling "O Holy Night" waiting for the elevator outside my office. Happy...Christmas?

Kagan and I had our engagement pictures taken this last Saturday. Our photographer is Whitney Lewis and she is AMAZING.

Want to know who else is an amazing photographer? My sister. She's fantastic. Check it out.

I have such a great family. :)

I hear wedding bells ringing...

You have no idea how long I've been keeping this in.

I'M ENGAGED!!

I would post pictures on here, but my computer has some retardation problems, so here are some links:

Here's a picture of my ring straight on, and here's one from the side.

Here's the setup where he proposed.

Incredibly happy.

The day he proposed started out as one of the worst days I'd had in a long time, but me made it one of the best days of my life. :) I love him!

Oh and for those of you who haven't already heard, Kagan Eden and I will be married on July 31, 2010 in the Manti Utah temple. We can't wait!

P.S. If you want to see all the pictures I posted for this, just click here.

P.P.S. I know many of you are probably thinking "Wait...weren't you going on a mission?" You are correct in thinking so. I had planned on going on a mission, but plans have changed. After much thought, prayer, and an overwhelming confirmation, I am confident that I have made the right decision, and that I'm going to be incredibly happy, married to my best friend. The Lord works in mysterious ways, but I'm glad He works things out the way he does! :)

Secret #18

I've decided that when I have my first boy, his middle name will be

DANGER.

And I'm not even kidding.

Imagine the baby blessing in church.